Josh refers to himself as a junkie. Once I overcame my initial shock with his condition, I realized that his perspective on life intrigued me. His views of people and on society as a whole have made him feel isolated from others, and this social anomy has become the fuel for his addiction. These feelings of depression are feelings that I - and I am sure many other people - can relate to. Frighteningly, I have noticed many similarities between the two of us. There have been many times when I have thought of trying to escape my life and numbing myself. Through photography I seek to explore the reason I choose to take the red pill every day and why Josh grinds up and shoots the blue one. In other words, why I choose to feel my pain and why Josh chooses to numb his.